Coping With Renal Failure

So,,here I am,,sitting at the computer and looking up as much info on CRF as I can,,,why? Because I was diagnosed with CRF obviously,,and,,because,,well,,i haven’t to this point taken it too serious,,let me explain.

I have Type 2 Diabetes and am veery overweight,,and,,,have overcome a veery bad gambling addiction only to replace it with a salt laiden crunchy food addiction,,,NOT GOOD,,especially with high blood pressure ,,so,,,why amongst everything else that can and does go wrong with diabetes ,have I been blessed with such a secondary disease also,,,Im not old,,39yrs young,,,and I feel like crap all the time,,,

I believe food is the problem,,,don’t get me wrong,,,I do not eat alot,,but CRAVE the chips and pickles,,,my problem lies within the dietitian area of my life,,,you see on one hand,,,diabetic dietitian says you can have this and this and this whilest kidney dietitian says this and this and this are now bad for you,,,never thought that fruits and vegetables would be BAD for me,,,and so,,,therin lies my problem,,,,, i love broccoli, cauliflower, potatoes,,,fruit,,,,cantaloupe,,,etc,,,but now cannot have and i feel all alone in this battle,,

i live in a small community and my dr’s are all in the city about 1 1/2 hr drive from here,,,dont feel no support and so i get depressed,,,my husband (bless his heart) says he loves me any size that i am,,,but i know that i HATE my size,,,,just need to get motivated,,,so,,,you might be saying,,,well dummy,,,wake up,,,,,your kidneys,,eyes,,etc are in trouble,,,why not do something now before it gets tooo bad,,,,,i cannot explain why,,,,but,,,,i just dont have it in me,,,no energy,,,and with no energy comes the sleepiness and sooo tired all the time,,,,,

i do not work,,,but am going to move to the city to work,,,but need to find a balance in my life i guess,,,so,,,and tips or ideas ones can help me with would be greatly appreciated,,,you see,,,i don’t want to live like this anymore,,,but need to be surrounded with positive energy to get me up and going and to try to hang onto what little function is left in my kidney ( i would say kidneys) but one kidney is down to no function and the other is at about 1/2 working,,for now anyway,,,so please,,if anyone has a weekly diet plan that includes foods to replace that salty crunch im looking for or has a diet regime that combines both kidney and diabetic diets that would be greatly appreciated,,,

so,,for now,,,i’ll sign off,,,and hope that someone reads this and takes the time to respond,,,,thank you Cheryl